Small Leaps of Faith

People seem to be shocked by my new jedi look. C'mon guys, big deal. I have more important things going on in life than hairstyles (or lack thereof). I feel more alive than ever before these days despite my lack of sleep with everything I'm involved in. Let me explain a little bit.

It's many guy's dream to quit their boring job and go do something cool like be a rock star or start a microbrewery or become a wilderness adventure guide. Trouble is life doesn't always seem to work that easily. There are mortgages, kids, etc. But guess what, I don't have those. haha So at my second job, when my Target store closes down and offers separation pay to take the lay-off, it sounds like an opportunity to me. Yes, they are gonna try to transfer those that want to. Given the choice, I told them I'm leaning toward quitting. I've got many creative ideas in music, business, and art/media that I'm starting to pursue, but with two jobs I don't have the time or energy I need to go at it full throttle. And I still have a part-time income and benefits from UPS. It's a way to take the plunge responsibly.

In a nutshell I will be creating a type of presence on the web with whatever creative resources of mine which will minister to and teach people and in the meantime have various product for income both in the church and secular realms. I've never really put myself out there like this, but I'm studying up on marketing, networking and all that good stuff. (To really learn networking, just watch the Godfather movies.) Gotta start somewhere right. Yes, it might take some time and there will be obstacles. I could take hits and make mistakes along the way, but who said life's process would be easy.

After watching the movie Nefarious covering the horrors of sex-trafficking, I know my part very well and will work my way toward a music/justice project for the cause. This gives me even more determination when I realize it's not just about me and I can no longer just stand by. Tears toward a purpose.

John Eldridge's book Wild at Heart talks about the dreams God puts in a man's heart and how we refuse to take the risks we were made to take in life and instead live a comfortable, bored lifestyle paying the bills and getting by, which sucks the life out of us rather than living by faith. Again I'm not talking about being stupid like leaving your family and job, I'm talking about a more responsible type of risk that involves prayer and guidance. Changes in life for me is happening very fast, both internally and from outward circumstances. Do you ever get that NOW moment happening in your spirit?

There's a scene in the movie Fight Club where Tyler Durden sticks a gun to the head of a convenient store clerk and rather than rob him he asks him why he took biology classes. The guy tells him he wanted to become a veterinarian, but there's too much school. Tyler then tells him he better be on his way to becoming a veterinarian when he comes back in 6 six weeks. When Norton later asks why he would do such a thing, Tyler says tomorrow morning that guy is going to be the happiest man on Earth.

Perhaps many of us could use a Tyler-gun-in-the-head moment. I know I needed one.